Thursday, May 31, 2007

been quite busy these days with the ben&jerrys trg. and the boss told one girl to leave during the trg lor..quite sad sia..oh well, hell's over so let the fun begin! and i din manage to get my brown cap la....got the pink one instead -_-

here's some pics of the sundaes we made!!




My chocolate fudge brownie!!!!!

i need to see the physio for my ankle man. i tink it's gg to give way like SOON. hahah my knee's alot better alr. yay.



and i tink i am more suited for individual sports.

Monday, May 28, 2007

apparently, even authorities like to go against us. using such lame excuses just to stop our player from playing, just go to hell man. if that doesn't mean representation, den y wear the body suit? y hold another selection? y not just send the entire squad there since the comp doesn't matter wad. wad a joke man. i can't believe the absurdity.

i'm trying to act nonchalant abt it. cos i'm disappointed. bit by bit, i'm losing touch.

Sunday, May 27, 2007

so many things to buy: psp, hp and contact lenses!! tsk....i must start working and stop spending!!

Saturday, May 26, 2007

this is crazy. i'm starting work next week and i'm gg to give tuition starting from the first week of june. and it's in the evenings, which means i haf to be late for trg.arugh. i hate being late for trgs den u get a crappy warm up and the whole trg is screwed. but the pay's 35 bucks per hr!! and it's twice a week!! guess i have to cab down to kallang.

trg last nite was quite bad. esp since the shooters are quite off. but i dun understand, things are not working out wif the midfield and it's pissing me off. but i haf to admit, i wasn't ready for trg last nite. sorry guys, but i really hope u guys will stop screaming at me. it's not gg to work esp last nite when i was feeling so spaced out.

nsl game later. hope we win so i dun haf to go down next week. but it's at bedok. arugh. kill me.

ok bye.

Thursday, May 24, 2007

yay, i've gotten the job at ben&jerrys!! :) come find me one day, geri!! hahahaha

there's the trg for promoters at the pc fair next week. i want earn more money!! i want my psp!! but at the rate i'm visiting the physio every week, i'm gg broke!!

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

thank you ms sng. :)

Thursday, May 17, 2007

this is damn cool..every player of the top 4 nsl teams will sign on those small scrunchy netballs and will throw them during the semis!! wahahahhhha

driving tml..test next week!!! arugh!!

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

"i'm more concerned about them getting their skills and tactical application right on the court than the result." so, are u trying to say i don't have the skills in the first place?? omg, i can't believe it. u seriously owe me a gd answer. u din do anything as a coach so don't try to control me. u're making me hate netball. and that suxs, cos u're such a nobody.

arugh all the hate just came back suddenly. i hate that kind of dangling-in-mid-air feeling. since i'm not gd enough, then don't keep me la. give so many excuses then hurt me time and again.

Friday, May 11, 2007

ytd went out wif fish to vivocity...can die la....the whole place's so big but it's actually quite boring... haha here's the pics!!

Thursday, May 10, 2007

i'm surprised she is facing it so strongly. and i really hope that she recovers in time for world champs. may god bless her.

Sunday, May 06, 2007

okie, the 10 rounds of nsl have finally been concluded today. marlins won every single game. haha. so see us in tp sports hall on the 26th of may man!

nwae, susan put me down for the last quarter today and we played vipers. but we were only up by 6!!! they could easily catch up la. i was damn stressed can. cos i don't want to go down and let vipers catch up, den marlins haf to call time and sub me out. that feeling suxs can. like totally! plus, i din warm up b4 the last quart cos i tot susan surely wun risk the 6 goals one. wa lau, scare me la when she passed me the GS bib. in the end, we won by 13. yay.

took me a long time to forget my 52% shooting last sun. and i finally realised the best condition to shoot in today. hope it will continue to work for me.

but everyone has been v supportive of me. all the marlins ppl esp. thank u guys. haha tho i duno how to react when mickey called me ou xiang. hehe but the feeling's great. at least i made them have faith in me. must thank huimin for wad she said ytd. and oso, ms sng. i was damn touched when she asked me how was my shooting today. i gave her the thumbs-up sign.haha, she's so nice la! unlike some other coaches who only know how to use their players but nvr genuinely care for them.

Saturday, May 05, 2007

marlins has been winning. i should be glad. well ok, at least i learnt smt. alrights, i shall not comment. but it's weird, like we keep winning but i felt quite indifferent. just now jeanine asked me if i played, and i didn't. oh wells, i can't do anything abt it oso.

but wad huimin said during the game really made me ponder. cos arowanas swopped their main shooters. den the substitute shooter isn't as accurate (duh). but we all know that she wun put the shot in, and i realised that kind of feeling suxs. as a shooter, to hear the opponents say that abt u, that really suxs. i must bring myself back. i don't want to have all my teammates praying that my shots go in. it's not luck, it's abt hard work. sigh.

alrights, we shuld all be happy rite, xian? haha tho it was quite fun shutting viv up..but viv, pls don't be so emo again...scary la..

and i wan to thank fish for the lovely bdae card!! i still love your bubble words and u made me miss hc even more!! y can't u come haf lunch wif us at coro tml la!! tsk...nvm i'm happy now that yr exams ended. YAY!!

and gf!! when are we gg out? u dun want yr speakers alr isit??

and hope my card made yas a lil happier. heh, all the best.

i duno wad's bothering kailing, but can tell she's quite upset tonite. cheer up babe!!

Thursday, May 03, 2007

okie, i should stop trying so hard.

shut up, diana. stop complaining abt how lost u're feeling. this ain't abt u. it's probably worse for her. stop making others sympathise with you. u can't do anything to help her, u're so useless.

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

shit, i'm so fuking insensitive. i din realise how scared and lost u were feeling. to be thrown such news at such a sudden time. and u didn't really have much of a choice. i was more bothered with how lost i felt. i read the conv again and i sounded so disinterested. wad i said was so superficial. no wonder u still felt like crap. sorry. i'll comfort u again on thurs. omfg, life is so screwed.

a second chance. i duno if it's gd or bad for u. but it's still a chance.

hope u're feeling better. mayb praying more helps. haha.

the stupid bruise on my knee refuses to heal. instead, it got bigger. think i fell when i played sharks on sunday.

my left knee is kinda weak right now. can feel the muscles at the kneecap getting strained sometimes. if my acl tears, so be it.

i wanna pull out of national league but i can't. jiao lian will kill me. but i can forsee myself going thru much more shit in the future months.

okie, maybe i shouldn't complain so much since i kept encouraging u to continue. but the thing is, the shit i've faced is really killing me. i feel that if i continue to think of wad's gg to happen, i'll go mad. seriously.

no nsl trg tml. yay. dread gg to nsl trgs now actually. cos i can't forsee where i'm heading after nsl. at least u still haf ur second chance. after nsl, i will have nth to do with the 21s. cos arafura will be over. until now, i still have a million and one qns for mh. i really DON'T want to go for the dec trials. i won't make it anyway. it's no point trying so hard. i'll just go there and shoot air balls. cos even if i'm 100% accurate, i wun make it.

sry but i'm a v dependent player. i need coaches to believe in me. susuan did, but i let her down. i'm sorry, susan. u wasted yr efforts training me. i cant shoot.

this is the ultimate sai year. i'm gg off to count sheep cos i'm having insomnia now. bye.