Monday, May 30, 2005

haha i finally got a hair cut....wanted to try cutting hair short but i din dare la....hahaha...gg out wif yuhui, geri and the twins to shop tml! yay!

Sunday, May 29, 2005

it's still coming back...arugh tis is worst den watching a horror show lar...i hate all the repercussions la....watching the video of last wed's game on tues....tis suck...i wonder how am i gonna sit thruout the whole thing.....seriously dreading it....i realised dat i've been too clogged wif so many things tis season dat i nvr really haf the chance to perform freely....well, u noe wad i mean la....damnnit

Saturday, May 28, 2005

it's a damn boring dae todae...all the bad memories frm last wed flashed back again todae....wth! it's a gd thing i went shopping wif mum just now, at least it took my mind off for a while.....ate at swensens just now..damn shiok....

Thursday, May 26, 2005

The medals don't mean anything and the glory doesn't last. It's all about your happiness. The rewards are going to come, but my happiness is just loving the sport and having fun performing.

a quote dat yasmin told me..thanks alot =)

we lost to ac yesterdae. period. the difference was quite large la. so we're second tis year. damn shitty. haix. i dunno, it seems dat there're so many uncertainties and we really dunno y we lost the game. but the truth is, we lost.

though jiao lian said dat we're not gonna haf to apologised to the team, but i still feel dat a major portion of yesterdae's defeat was caused by mi. if onli my shots had gone in, if onli my runs were there...i'm not gonna sae sorry caused things wun change, but i wun deny the fact dat i caused the team so many goals....i felt so helpless but i just culdn't sae anything during the game...i noe netball's a team game, but it's also a scoring game....arugh, i just hate myself! it's lyk the defenders work so super hard to intercept the balls while i just threw them all away...

i tink i disappointed jiao lian, our seniors and my team mates wif my farked up play yesterdae.. i wanted so much to go up to him and apologise..but i din...my play yesterdae was such a great disappointment. yucks..i feel so disgusted by my play la.. the team wanted it so much, but i didn't deliver it....i didn't fulfil my task of being a shooting machine....wadever happened to all the talk on the nite b4 the finals? he depends and expects so much from mi, but i failed! i feel ashamed to face him and even my team mates..i even feel ashamed to walk back onto the netball court now.

had i been lyk yasmin whu constantly reinforced the importance of shooting everydae, we wuldn't haf been lidat. or rather, my shooting wuldn't haf been dat bad! wen i woke up todae, i was tinking, did i make a mistake playing for hwa chong? i mean, there may be someone else more up to the task of leading the attack for the team and not me. true, the learning journey tis year culdn't be any better but maybe someone else will be much more dependable den me. there's been so much emotions these few months...is tis wad i really wanted? i mean of cos i will love to play for hwa chong, but i definitely dun wanna drag the team down wif me. moreover, i always experience huge disappointment aft every finals....last year was lidat, tis year was even greater..though i dun doubt him, but i certainly dun enjoy dat bitterness. dat disappointment has always kept mi tinking is what i'm doing worth it? i tink it proved tis year dat it's not. not gonna complain or anything, i'll accept it. i'll need a break frm netball, hope it's not permanent..he said if we give up playing now, we'll be left wif onli yesterdae's defeat. But, am i ready to take on another defeat after yesterdae's? not onli dat, will i still be able to swallow the disappointment dat i face aft every season for these past 2 years? i wonder..

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

tml's the DAY man!! let's do it team hwa chong!

Monday, May 23, 2005

had trg at 9 todae..we had no hall so had to train in the sun! the weather was so freaking hot! nwae, sneakers came down todae...really haf to thank them alot...veri touched! on the overall, trg was quite okies....ya..went to scotts foodcourt to eat wif some of them....there's trg tml too! the j2s last trg....it's really quite sad~ arugh, and i haf stupid chem spa tml! damn shitty! cant concentrate lor....kept tinking abt wed's game....bleahs =X

Sunday, May 22, 2005

wednesday's drawing near....so super scary...ac's been gg ard and trashing every single sch tis season..just lyk last year wen we struggled to win aj by 5 while they trash aj lyk nobody's business...we muz really fight hard..jia you jia you!

Friday, May 20, 2005

we won aj..54-38. so we're in the finals now!!!! next wed at toa payoh sports hall against ac...we're gonna create the decade of champions man...nwae, it was so much niser playing aj den rj lar...aj pple are so much niser and friendlier on court....=)

wow, cant believe it....season's gonna end soon...tink i'll miss trg lor...haix...so stupid lor, b4 we start the season, so many pple sae hc's not gg to make it to the finals tis year....hahah, jiao lian said "to tink so many schs THINK they can beat us in the first round wen we played jj and vj"..we've definitely proven the hc spirit...and muz really thank the sneakers players for taking leave frm work just to watch us todae..and oso our seniors lyk hezhen, beelian, zanet and hongxi! thanks for all yr support.....

Thursday, May 19, 2005

tml's a crucial game wif aj..the sneakers players are coming down to support i tink...wah really great morale booster! jia you team hwa chong!

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

i'm slacking in sch now.....i love wednesdaes man! supposed to haf pe tis morning but it was raining so yuhui and i decided to pon....went sixth avenue to eat....had venezia's ice cream and waffles =) YUM! no more lessons for mi liao..just waiting for sch to end and the torturous trg to start....having a game tonite...against sneakers again......confirm get a whole lot of scoldings again...=(

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

had a game wif sneakers yesterdae..they're veri nise to come down to help us =) todae's another slack dae...hahah w/o netball..i haven been home so early in such a long time! gonna haf trg tml...one of my last few..quite she bu de....nwae, realised i was such a bad sport last fri..aft the game wif rj....i din shake hands wif my opponents after the game....onli shook anna's hand cos she initiated it....i had to admit, i was damn pissed aft the game....wif alot of things la..but yucks la, i'm disgusted at the amt of sportsmanship i haf....

Sunday, May 15, 2005

okies we won rj. 42-28...it was a rather close game i muz sae..so, we're gonna play aj tis fridae to see whu'll be gg to the finals....hc muz play tis year's finals! but we muz still fight hard on fri..cannot take things easy....nwae had trg yesterdae..short one though....did courtwork and stuff...cant believe i haf either trg or game the whole of tis week! mon-game, tues-trg, wed-game, thurs-trg, fri-game, sat-trg! oh my....todae's the onli netball-less dae! but i just realised dat i onli haf 2 more games b4 the end of my season for 2005. sobs...yesh, i'm gonna miss it~ oh ya, jiao lian asked on fri whether we won the game anot....i felt dat the team won, but i didn't. i failed to do wad he told mi to do...haix. Shall prove it the next 2 games, they're gonna be the best 2 i've ever played these 2 years..

Friday, May 13, 2005

we're gonna play rj later....to determine whu will face ac in the semis....the loser todae will face ac..we muz win!

Thursday, May 12, 2005

one gold, 2 goals.

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

we won nj. it was a gd game for us... the score was 65-49..yar, update again tml....damn shagged now....hahaha nitex

haha ponned maths lect todae.....practically waste time in sch lor......hahaha...having game later wif nj at 440.....dat's quite exciting.....haha...

Monday, May 09, 2005

todae's game was fairly okie....played the last 2 quarts...damn shit lar....was wondering how cum i din start....but probably cos i had a real shitty warm-up esp wen doing 1/3 court....wasnt on form for warm-up...den he suddenly put mi in to play shooter lor....nvr even ask mi to warm up lar...scary..but he din comment abt my play, hmmm. nwae we won pj, 73-30. could haf been so much better! =X

okies, i'm released from sch....abit early yarh....we're playing our first game of the quarter finals against pj later @ 320.....finally, a much better draw as compared to our first round....but i'm kinda irritated now...oh wells....wadever...

Saturday, May 07, 2005

todae's trg was quite gd.... as in it felt lyk the play was more comfortable....even jiao lian said we've done well...hahah wow..it feels gd man....hahah nwae, aft trg shanny, yuhui and i went to causeway point to eat....ate at fiesta...the food there's not veri gd though....bleahs.....and we took alot of neoprints aft dat!~ cos the first time we took, the photos din really turn out well....hahah so we took again!!!

first shot:


muahahah, jiao lian's famous action!




second shot:

they look lyk they're sian diao and i'm lyk fa hua chi!

went down to knc for a draw of the second round grouping. we're gonna play nj, rj and pj...jia you bah! nwae, we had a game wif sneakers last nite....felt dat we played better....and he praised mi for a gd run!!! wow, dat it seemed lyk ages since i got praised....muz work harder! haf to reach sch at 1 later cos we haf to watch the video of our game vs vj..

Thursday, May 05, 2005

watched vball todae..the guys played aj for 3rd/4th position....it was quite exciting lar...hahah cos we lost the first set..but won the last 3...shiok! hahaha..finally we won smt for sports la...sch's sian todae...got so much work lar.....tml's even more sian..got a frenly wif sneakers at nite..but shanny, serena & eddie are not gg! cos they got some u-19s selections....die lar.....shooters onli left mi and shalene..GOOD LUCK TO US! hahahahaha (ps: it's an internal joke)

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

we won vj. they were good i muz sae....and both teams put up a strong fight. though i felt dat it was our passes and catching dat pulled us down todae, but still, we never gave up. it was a gd game and a rather hilarious one....cos so many time-outs were called in the 4th quart cos players got muscle cramps....i tink we had lyk 6 time-outs la.....den i was the onli hc player who got the cramps oso...so embarrassing! the final score was 38-34....we haf to work much much harder....

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

we'll prove it to u tml, jiao lian.

Sunday, May 01, 2005

okies i really haf tis feeling dat i'm gonna be sick veri soon....shit shit! it's season time now, arugh i dun want the same feeling dat i had last year to happen again tis year!

nwae the debrief we had during trg abt fri's game was so scary can! i mean i din expect it to be veri gd but i definitely din expect so much tears dat dae...it was really horrible..and i really feel lyk kicking myself for saying dat i had doubts abt myself b4 the game...how culd dat be man..the last person i will haf doubts abt is probably myself....jiao lian is right, he needs mi to lead the attack....i dun want to be put on the bench for the rest of the season man...wtf i cant imagine myself sitting down and cheering for the team during the finals lor...the team trusts mi, so i will not let them down.

true, we're not playing lyk a champion team, but things are picking up...we muz work much, much harder! jia you for trg tml!