Tuesday, November 30, 2004

let's see! a christmas wish list! i really got nth to do lar...hahah

WHAT I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS 2004:
- a new pair of levi's jeans
- new haversack
- red nike sports bra
- dangling earrings
- pierre cardin wallet
- to jump higher!

haha, todae went to east coast for self trg...mi, weilin, yuhui and xiao jun cycled while geri and the 2 beccas rollerbladed....hahah wah cycling is so tiring.....we cycled frm one end to the other of the park lor.....can die leh....i tink the rain helped mi else we wun turn back so soon lor....heng...got muscle ache now..we ate waffle at gelare....damn gd....hahaha....including the ice-cream....hahah...nwae, mi and yuhui went town aft eating....took some photos of the christmas lights...nise! we walked ard and i got new hairbands and clips! yay! yuhui got a new hairband too! ate my durian puffs! so nise!! lol!! but me, being a kind soul, gave sheena one piece oso....hahah.....no lar i cant finish all..=p nwae, we took neoprints again todae....so fuN! =)

Monday, November 29, 2004

went to cut hair todae wif annie....ppl go rebond leh...finally le...hahaha not bad lar....quite nise! i highlighted my hair oso....75 bucks leh! plus cut lar...hahah........but got free hair treatment so not dat bad...hahah..went to meet peiyi and ah gong to watch polar express....tt show sux lor....so boring....i fell asleep can....lyk abit fake leh the show....waste $$....haha! walked ard for a while den went to eat dinner at sakae sushi.....slack frm 7 to abt 9.15 lidat..took neoprints!! =)

gonna haf self trg at east coast park tml.... shiok.... hahaha..

Sunday, November 28, 2004

When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms..

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.This was the scene of ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid, I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affections between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school. Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy.

But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes. Dew came into my life.It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her. Dew said, You are the kind of man who best draws girls. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls. Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn' t help doing so. I moved Dew's hands aside and said, You go to select some furniture, O.K.? I 've got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised her to go and see with her.

At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt. Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment.

One day I said to her in a slight joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn' t imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking with her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.Once again, Dew said to me, Divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.

When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I 've got something to tell you, I said.She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn' t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want to divorce. I raised a serious topic calmly.She didn t seem to be much annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer turned her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!At that night, we didn t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

A late night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fell asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again. She brought up her divorce conditions: she didnt want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month's time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didnt want him to see our marriage was broken.She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, Do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember . You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage with a romantic form.

I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out for the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don t tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset.

I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for bus, I drove to office. On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn' t looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.On the third day, she whispered to me, The outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became more vague.On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger.I didn t tell Dew about this. I felt it was easier to carry her.

Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now. She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, All my dresses have grown fatter. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head. Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, Actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.I held her tightly and said, Both you and I didn t notice that our life was lack of such intimacy. I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision.

I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious. She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I wont divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didnt value the details of life, not because we didn t love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you.Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears.

I walked downstairs and drove to the office. When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favourite. The salesgirl asked me to write the greeting words on the card. I smiled and wrote, I 'll carry you out every morning until we are old.

What a beautiful story. =)

i cant slp. maybe i slept too much just now. haix. seems dat it's time to let go. or maybe i shuld haf done it long ago. wad was i hoping for? ha, i was just too naive.

sometimes, wen reality hits u, it's really hard to get back up again....u shuld just be a fantasy. far far away....

hahah! my experiments wif the new cam! hoho!

Saturday, November 27, 2004

my camera....haha not bad looking rite....=D

也许我已经放弃你, 也许已经很难回头

went to expo and got a new digital camera!! its the canon powershot sd20!! design quite nise leh.....ahaha....dad bought a printer oso.....those dat can print photos out one wen u connect the camera to it....quite a gd deal oso....=D

Friday, November 26, 2004

wah....todae had both hc and sneakers trg....damn shagged....i woke up wif neck ache todae lar..... hahahah....so scary! make mi tink of shutter tt movie....den i went home to weigh myself! the weight increased lar.... omg! hahah, tink i ate too much? but i weigh just b4 dinner!! hahahhaha.... maybe i need to exercise more!

Thursday, November 25, 2004

wah did cip frm 2-10 todae lar.......can die.... nwae it was raining again and we get to slack b4 doing fundraising for the 1st shift...but we ended up doing abt half an hr onli lor..... hahah.....waste time.....den we decide to do park security.....but damn boring lar....and i was super suay!! =p went to play the viking ship and another ride aft our cip.....wah the viking was so scary! i tot weilin was gonna fall out!! den yuhui was ultra farnie lar.....cos she was lyk screaming and trying to sae "weilin is gonna fall off!!!" damn farnie! hahah..... second ride was some spinning thing....wah really can die.....at first we were lyk saying how come so slow one.......den aft tt, my god lar! we nearly died lar.....damn fast! and i knocked my head against the bar lar.....ouch! den the speed is really break neck one lor.....best......but super fun!! enjoyed it alot! though i broke out in cold sweat la.....hahahahh... saw bee lian!! hahah......she lyk put on makeup eh! hahah...... todae's the ends of A's!! saw quite a few hc pple....hmmm..

Tuesday, November 23, 2004

wad a slack dae it is todae lar.... met yuhui at 12 at orchard mrt....hahah, i was late again....ooops! hahah.... nwae, we went to far east cos there's a nike sale! not bad lar.....the stuff quite gd.....though a bit ex....bought 2 shirts.....one has pink lining? =_= but i lyk the cutting.....the main color is white.....so nvm bah! went to the silkpro booth to do volunteering work todae....saw weilin, thor, weisong, jinghao, zhuo song, aaron, sheena and xiao hui...nwae, we ended up slacking the whole afternoon cos it started raining aft the briefing so we cant walk ard! wahahaha! so shuang! and we got 4 hrs of cip hrs just lidat! quite shuang....lets pray dat it rains on thurs! hahaha.....abit bad eh....lols! den mi and yh went to watch incredibles while the rest went off to the nike sale.......wah incredibles is one show dat u wuldn't want to miss!! so farnie!!! i lyk the baby in the show eh! damn super cute!! i oso lyk the small boy called dash! hahaha, chao farnie lar! it's a muz watch show!! nwae, i've concluded dat next time yh cannot be a tour guide cos she actually went on the wrong train from orchard mrt! and i blindly followed her!! =_= went all the way to city hall! my goodness.....zhen shi de!! hahahaha....but nvm lar, at least she reached home faster....hahah!!

Monday, November 22, 2004

i grew taller! i'm 172.1 cm!! yay!!

went to the yck gym wif the netballers in the morn....damn tired lar....did a reasonable amt of weights.....hahah *pats on the back* den went to amk kbox to meet gf....hahahah singing is nise! ahaha..went to j8 aft tt to slack...and i got new earrings! quite ex leh....mmmmm frm perlini silver one....lols...tml gg to do cip in orchard....oh ya!hahah saw ben in j8..hahah, he scared mi lar....suddenly "er hermx!" behind mi....i tot wad... den gf best...still continue walking...hahah!!!! apparently we saw him alone la, den he sae he's gg to watch movie wif his uncle =_+ hahahah!! duno true anot one.......hahaha!! super long nvr see him le....his braces still on...hahah...

Sunday, November 21, 2004

had some inter cc netball carnival todae.... haha, onli played 3 games... won 2 of 3....but need to win all 3 to get into next round....so sayonara to us! haha! i was lyk totally off form todae.... cant believe i actually missed all the near shots can..... haix... den the last team so qiang.....tanjong pagar team comprising janice, limin, hezhen, shuang ru and wai yee.... my goodness lar....so qiang can! and hezhen was pro as usual.....haha as though the absence from netball since may din deprove her standard lidat...damn gd lar....duno wad happened to mi..cant concentrate lar.... grrrr.... shall work hard for the dunman sec friendly on fri!

i dun feel lyk toking to you anymore. maybe wad others told mi are true. dat pple tend to zhong se qing you. how true. fine. dun ask me y.

Saturday, November 20, 2004

对不起
我虽然心太急
更害怕错过你

Friday, November 19, 2004

i hate sylvester lar!! to hell wif all his fans lar.....get a farkin' life lar! if he ever makes it to world idol, i'd rather sae i cum frm north pole!! he's lyk how ugly and scrawny lar..... ask him to take a look in the toilet bowl lar! even mark lee looks 100 times better than him!! the judge is rite lor, he just needs to stand on stage and smile can liao, he might as well be a giggolo lar! smile to everyone den!! arughhhhhhh damn pissed!!!

someone pls tell mi wad to do.... i cant remember how u look like anymore.

Thursday, November 18, 2004

wooo hooo! hahah i'm back frm class chalet..abit sad lar dat it ended so early..... haix.....haha but nvm lar, i had a great time there man!! hehe!! okie on monday, i went to yuhui's hse at 11+ to make jelly for ye and fang cos they wanted it for their bdae on tues!! =_= hahah! and luckily both of us got no work tt dae man......hehe.....but geri and weilin got to work so we waited for them lor....we borrowed 3 dvds- pirates of the carribean, sisters and the face.....hahah....shiok!! den we met geri and weilin at lot 1 to take a cab to aranda country club....our unit is at the rose block, 2312....wah the room is chao nise!! so big!! veri classy oso! hahaha, de class was alr there wen we reached at 5.... the whole room was soooo noisy lar!! everyone was either playing majong, cards, or playing PS2..... bleahs....hahah our class is full of gamblers sia! nwae had bbq the first nite.....the chicken wings tasted weird, lyk no taste lidat.......haha but nvm lar,i tink we finished everything in the end!! den aft tt we went up to the room to continue wif the gambling session.....hahah....but we actually stopped at 9 cos alot of us wan to watch ren wo ao you!! wah damn fun watching wif a big group of ppl!! and we were bz niaoing sheena and weisong away lar.......damn farnie!! nwae, we continued wif our majong and cards aft the show.....oh ya, there was once wen mi, amanda, thor and weisong were playing bridge....den i had to go bathe so i asked yuhui to take over mi and amanda had to send choo min off so she asked sheena to take over....hahah! wah tt table really got high voltage sia!!haha, den joseph brought out the cake to celebrate the bdae wif the twins!! hahah, they're lyk so paiseh to shake hands wif each other lar, damn farnie!! they oso kanna sabo by us lar wen joseph sprayed whipped cream all over them!! they're lyk screaming away sia, really can bring down the whole building lar!! lols! hehe....den we went to arcade but the arcade was closed liao lar.....waste time leh!! in the end we went to the lobby of downtown east cos got some christmas stuff put up.....den the security guard came....spoil the fun leh....kium pa!! hahaha.... went back to the room to watch sisters aft tt, geri was screaming her head off lar..... and i oso did for some parts, hahah wad hum ji ppl we are!! lols! the gals went off to slp aft tt but i slept outside, on the sofa cos i tink the bed got no more space liao..hahah, but ended up i din slp the whole nite lar, cos the boys were making alot of noise while playing ps2.....

haha, den second dae, the netballers and sheena woke up at 6.45 lidat cos we haf trg in sch! how sad!! lols!! hahahha, den we just ate some bread and set off.....had to split into 2 cabs cos the driver refuses to fetch 5 ppl sia...... kium pa lar..... hahah, but nvm lar, mi and yuhui got more space to slp....hahah! trg was okie la cos the j2s were having their A's den jiao lian cant scream at us.....hahah...heng sia.....den we went to coro to eat b4 returning back to the chalet....hahah.... the 4 of us jumped straight into bed and slept till 130....wanted to go escape one....den in the end, some of us were playing blackjack den din want to go.....hahah, i was the dealer sia!! not bad lar, made quite a bit....my luck was damn gd.....heng sia! thanks gf! for giving mi some gd luck sia! nwae, we went out to the arcade and yuhui & mi won some stuff....hahah, den we went to bowl...my luck was better aft i used the dark brown ball sia.....hahah luckily i listen to siva lessons sia.....hahaha!the twins oso bowled..... cos they got free games mah on their bdae.....so shuang lar....den we went to eat....... ate kfc whilst the rest had burger king......den waited for the final episode of ren wo ao you to start.....the ending suxs lar......damn jian leh....nwae, we played zhong ji mi ma aft tt.....hahah, not bad lar quite fun!! but tink the food wasn't extreme enuff leh....cos it tasted not bad.... i oso kanna lar....it was chocolate and normal milk mixed together, den chili sauce and ketchup, coke and orange syrup.....hahah....not bad lar....cos it was sweet....den went on to continue the blackjack game....but alot of ppl not playing tis time.....hahah so it was quite sian...the twins went home liao cos ye was feelin' sick.....hope she's better now!!=D nwae, the gals were watching a show called "Honey".....din really understand the show but the gal was really quite chio leh....hahah....den some of us stayed in the living room and tok for a while..haha mostly toking rubbish lar.......hahah ger was busy entertaining herself! lols! den we went out for a nite walk.....mi, yuhui, sheena, geri, weisong, jinghao and zhuo song.....had 2 bicycles wif us....so some cycled while the rest walked lor......went to the beach.....wah there was tis couple there doing some hanky panky stuff lar....haha tink we spoilt their privacy lar! hahah heck lar....wah the beach was really super windy at nite leh....hahah can really slp there......den at ard 530 lidat, we all went back to the room lor.......bth liao!! slept till 1049 lidat cos need to check out liao....hahaha....so tt marks the end of our chalet!

some of us went to eat at tampines mall and watched the show 'taxi'.... i tink the show was not bad lar, but i din really watch cos i was falling asleep liao.......damn tired leh.......haha reached home at 6 lidat.... den slept till 9.....watched the new show on channel 8.....zoe tay was damn farnie inside lar.....hahah yuhui muz be feeling damn happy now! =P hehe... den i slept frm 12 to 130 todae.....wah really damn pig sia....hahah, and i'm feeling sian now!! nth to do todae leh!!

Sunday, November 14, 2004

eh wah lau i am so super tired!! aft just 2 daes of full daes' work in jurong west, i'm damn shagged lar......and i still duno how to break an egg!! bleahs...hahah, nwae, i can grill things okie!! mai siao siao!! lols!! todae had to grill mah, cos the malays having hari raya.....hahah, quite exciting leh.....lols! but hor, thruout these 2 daes, lyk got duno how many ppl placed their orders wif mi in malay lar!! phat!! wah biang can die......and the worst thing is dat they're lyk damn shocked to find out dat i can speak chinese?? best!! how exciting......=_= hahahaha, but oso cant blame lar, next time i go use whitener.....hahah!

i'm gg for class chalet tml!! heheheheheh!! yay, cant wait sia!!!

Thursday, November 11, 2004

wah i went to work at imm todae....damn tiring....hahahah... but not bad lar....the ppl there are quite nise.......i was at the indonesian grill tt side..haha preparing the decoration b4 the main course is done.......hahaha, quite fun!! but i was super embarrassing lar, cos the chef asked mi to get more eggs rite, den i had to break them on my own....cos cannot let ppl noe i duno mah, else veri paiseh!! but it proves dat i really duno!! *sobs!! so i tried lor, den first time i hit the egg, and i used my fist to crush the whole egg.......den everything went in.. plus the shell! kaos......tink the kitchen auntie nearly died.....hahah i oso nearly died! den i had no choice but to tell her i duno how to break eggs!! =( den i had to beat the eggs but i oso duno! lols....how sad life leh......hahaha, den in the end i tink i was really stirring the thing instead of beating it....diaos!! but i made it the second time k.....hahaha, but lyk aft 15 mins lar.....hehe! quite nise experience.....lols!

Tuesday, November 09, 2004

YAY I CONCLUDE THE END OF PW NOW!! SUPER SHUANG!! FINALLY NO NEED TO SEE TT MAGGI MEE LIAO....SHIOK SIA!! hahah, ooops, i'm gg mad here le....haha! to tink dat aft op todae at 330, we slacked at the class bench until 7+ lar....... mi, geri and yuhui went home first.....some others stayed back to haf dinner together.....wah our daidee game wif jing hao was chao farnie lar... we kept letting others put their cards first, den beat them.... sympathy lar......hahah...but was super farnie... in the end, yuhui dropped frm president to asshole for the last game lar! and she said she hoped to remain as president still.....zhen shi de! mad lar....hahah.....wah super tired...gg slp soon! =D there's trg tml.... hope it doesn't rain!

Monday, November 08, 2004

wah i'm so highly irritated by yr dao-ness can..... u dun seem nise as wad others haf said lar.... bleahs.... oh wells, i dun even noe u wad! wadeva la..

tell mi abt it man! i'm gonna haf my op tml liao!! man oh man!! finally lar.... i cant wait for it to end! and i hafta worry abt my Q&A lar.... my goodness.....the founder of pw shuld just go to hell lar...... hahah....so scary lar! pray hard dat i dun freak out tml!! muz remember to haf expression!! as wad helen samuel saes....oh wells....mad lar.... nvm lar, at least i'm the first person of the first grp to speak...not dat bad.....lols! can slack aft dat!! lols! poor geri!! last grp sia!

Sunday, November 07, 2004

Find out what flavour ice cream you are @ star-girl.org!

i hate coffee lar.... stinks leh =X


Find out which Winnie the Pooh Character you are @ star-girl.org!

yay, i lyk piglet!! =D



bleahs, mad lar! mi, a model??? crazeh!



Find out which Barbie you are at star-girl.org!

mi a ballerina?? well maybe!! hahah, cos got ppl sae i run lyk one! i wonder if tt's an insult or a compliment lar....



wah abit gross...


How are you going to die? Find out @ star-girl.org!

hahaha tis is a retarded quiz....


What kind of ANGEL are you?
Quiz made by Angela

veri nise images..

had the weirdest dream last nite.... well, pple sae if u keep tinking abt smt in the dae, it will appear in yr dreams at nite? haha, for once, it's true sia.. but it truly happened in an odd manner man..one time i was elated and a second later, everything was shattered....wad a weird dream... and the weirdest ppl were inside it too... the ironic thing is, i nvr forget how they looked lyk....weird!

my left wrist hurts man.... duno wad happened... tink i hurt it dur trg yesterdae.... super tired.... just came back from celebrating my grandfather's bdae at crystal jade...haha....damn full.. dinner wasn't veri gd though.. and friendster sucks lar! anyhow delete ppl's testimonial...scare mi to death leh.... i tot how disappointed i'm gonna be can....

I was naive
Your love was like candy
Artificially sweet
I was deceived by the wrapping

Saturday, November 06, 2004

omg! look at tis man!! wad are u guys doing out there man!! lols! nwae, suddenly tot of jane wen i saw tis pic...rem how u sae he got one big belly? it proves u wrong....haix

Friday, November 05, 2004

wah.... had trg todae.... watched shark tale wif yuhui b4 trg....the show's quite dumb lar....hahah.. but i tink finding nemo is better.... nwae trg was okie todae la....except the rain came again and we had to train indoors! wah biang! and poor teh and mi haf to do the shooting drill again!! hahah wah teh todae SUPER on form leh!!! accuracy 100% leh!! lols.... *beams* ate at forture.... super shuang....nwae leandra is out of the idol competition....well, i've nth to sae oso lar...hahah..

I hurt much more
Than anytime before
It's all because of you.

Thursday, November 04, 2004

watching vcds.. haix....he's so shuai can.. oh man.... u're so far yet so near.. great specs, great smile!! arugh!! oh man i just love him! *sighs*

went swimming todae..din really swin alot lar.... but just to exercise lor....aft tt went to watch cellular wif gf and yuhui! hahah.... the show is damn gd lar.... chao exciting lar....hahah.... and the both of them were so farnie! i nvr knew wad's called shy until todae man!~ hoho!!! aiya, but the dae ended well i guess.... we just sat ard and toked....hahah so fun!! hehe!! tml i haf pw lar..... so sian diao! bleahs......but nvm lar, ending soon liao!! yay! tink i'll go run tml lar..... else i feel veri bad....hahah....


She can't hide no matter how hard she tries
Her secret disguised behind the lies
And at night she cries away her pride
With eyes shut tight staring at her inside
All her friends know why she can't sleep at night
All her family asking is she alright
All she wants to do is get rid of this hell
Well all she's got to do is stop kiddin herself
She can only fool herself for so long

-Carousel by Linkin Park

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

When I look into your eyes
There's nothing there to see
Nothing but my own mistakes
Staring back at me

true. it was just a mistake knowing you.my greatest mistake ever.

Tuesday, November 02, 2004

haha, was feeling so sian diao todae...went to gf's house to watch vcd...haha forced her to fried noodles for mi!!! ahahah, nvr lose the standard.... and i learnt how to peel a potato!! lols... so shuang..nwae, my wife is a gangster 2 is chao farnie lar.....so retarded....but the gal super zai leh.. but she really cant smile lar....looks horrible!!!

the photos we took todae!!!! hehe!!

Monday, November 01, 2004

It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something more
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Something has been taken from deep inside of me
The secret I've kept locked away no one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show they never go away
Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they've played

It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have
Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back
And never moving forward so there'll never be a path

Just watching in the sun
All of my helplessness inside
Pretending I don't feel misplaced

It' so much simpler to change
It's easier to runReplacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
It's easier to run