Sunday, October 31, 2004

Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
Just give me myself back and
Don't stay
Take all your faithlessness with you
Just give me myself back and
Don't stay

I don't need you anymore, I don't want to be ignored
I don't need one more day of you wasting me away

Sometimes I, need to remember just to breathe
Sometimes I, need you to stay away from me
Sometimes I'm in disbelief I didn't know
Somehow I need you to go

With no apologies
Don't stay

i noe it ain't easy to do it, but i shall try....i should try to 4get u.... since nth will come out of tis. pls don't stay if u do not mean to. though i still wish u will.but nvm.

wah i am so tired todae!! woke up early in the morning to do cip.... reached sch at ard 7.40 lidat...den realised i was the earliest again...-_- yuhui took the wrong bus and ended up being late....ye and fang were still on the train wen i called them..... hahah.... so i went to shoot first lor..hahah... feeling bo liao mah..den went off to clementi to do cip....

supposed to clean up a unit....den in the end, the uncle cum tell us no need clean cos he finished cleaning liao......hahah... heng....so we wasted a morning lor..... and wasted my one buck eating some disgusting cup noodles....hahah.. lunch was okay lar....den aft dat went to help kaihong's grp paint house....quite exciting lar...haha but veri tiring....hahah but in the end, the hse ended up having different shades of yellow!!hahah... aiya nvm lar, artistic lar....nwae the auntie was quite nise...hahah..

left clementi and reached sch at ard 5.40.... den went to bathe and went for halloween party in sch...kinda sian leh.... watched scary movie 3.....chao retarded show lar....they wanted to go haunted house one.... but i was too hum so in the end nvr go....aiya, too long a queue oso wad....

went town aft watching the movie... took neoprints and played pool!! reached home at 12.... heng arh....hahah..... super duper tired now liao!!! zzZZzz~~~

disappointment. i tot u weren't lidat. but u proved me wrong. haix, totally disappointed in u. but i prob haf no right to do so. i'm just a nobody.

Saturday, October 30, 2004

i cant believe tis!! i was late for the last dae of sch!! woke up at lyk 745?? den i was lyk omg!! cham leh... den just rush down aft washing my face and brushing teeth.. den heng leh, i got a cab straightaway!! haha! ate lunch at coro wif jinghao, choo min, aaron, weilin, amanda, yuhui, geri and jiamin....so farnie lar, the guys keep niaoing each other lar.... nvr stop one leh!! lols...madness!!

nwae had trg todae @ 5....apparently, jiao lian din noe dat we're supposed to haf trg todae....biang eh can die....haha madness leh.... but in the end we still trained lor.... hahah... quite okie lar.. he wasn't veri pms-y!! went to eat at adam's road there wif yuhui....hahah super full now lar.....and christopher got kicked out?! wth!!

and how i wished, how i wished.... dat was for me.

Friday, October 29, 2004

trg was cancelled todae...wth, waste my time in sch leh...the whole afternoon was wasted....oh man, and it's postponed to tml @ 5....kaos... can die lar...tml's last dae of sch! finally lar.... but i'm oso feeling sad...cos it wun be the same next yr liaos....haix....

i hate it wen everything ended so abruptly....i hate to start it everytime... i hate to tink of u.. oh wells, wadeva.

i dun understand y u are so cold to mi

Wednesday, October 27, 2004

wah went for a run on the trendmill just now....ran for 15 mins....can die....den did some weights! tml gonna haf muscle ache le....hahaha.. nwae, i went j8 just now to get my tori Q!! *drools* hahah super shuang can!! saw chee may there....at samuel and kevin..lols!! bought a pair of slippers for 15 bucks! wad a deal!! hahahah....i shuld stop spending man!! wah i'm chao tired now la.... tml still haf trg at spe @ 7... so late lar... having friendly wif another 2 teams.... jia lat...

i salute you for yr bravery... for yr courage to face things alone... i'll be praying hard for u..

oh ya!! i learnt how to play bridge!! hahaha but i still suck at it lar.....hahah but quite exciting leh!! and i won one game todae!! out of lyk duno how many thousands games lar...bleahsss~~

u're not worth it

Tuesday, October 26, 2004

eh hahaha, i finally got my skirt!!!!! yay!! and it costs mi 59.90 lar!! my goodness, so ex!! hahah, 1.90 more den geri's skirt... haha, but i lyk the color and oso the cutting....so nise!! hehehe, going mad liao leh....but i guess i cant get anything ex for another lyk 3 weeks? hahah... cham... nvm lar! at least i'm satisfied now!! *beams*

sch was super sian todae! had pw OP dry run 2...haha guess it was much better den the first one..den had maths tutorial aft tt.... so sian diao lar, mr yap onli went thru one question den release us liao...waste mi time leh!~

den went bugis wif fang, geri and yuhui.... hahah, ye din cum wif us! she went to play pool wif wee jin *raises a brow* hahahah..... tink she's dying of happiness! =P had tori Q for lunch! wah so super shuang leh!! i love the pork!! yummy yum!! den walked ard bugis.... really nth there one lor... so sian diao! and my bag was killing mi can! duno wad i put inside oso lar, so damn heavy lar!

went to take the train at 1.50 lidat cos fang gotta meet alex at ps, so the rest of us went to wisma lor.....hahah and we finally found venezia le!! hahah, had my belgium chocolate! so super shuang!! den we walked ard lor....hahah and i found my skirt at zara!! hehehe.... well, there's lyk so many things i want to buy....but no money lar....hahah next week lar....

trg tml is cancelled...damnit! it's on thurs and we'll be having a frenly against src and yew tee... hmmmm nvr hear b4 oso..hope can play well tt dae...hahah..

it's been a long time since we last..................................... talked.

Monday, October 25, 2004

wah i'm lyk chao super tired lor... hahah.... went shopping wif fang, yuhui and geri todae! haha, pon econs review lor....so damn sian can... and it's siva lecturing somemore lar.... sian diao! nwae, we went far east first... ate chicken rice there... but seriously, there's nth much to shop there lor... den we went to pacific plaza.. oso sian diao cos the stuff all veri ex! hahah.... den fang wanted to go heeren b4 meeting her fren at ps.... so there we go! haha, went heeren and walked ard for a while....wah really sian diao eh.... nth there one.... so boring lar....hahah.... aft fang left, we went to paragon... hahah, the stuff there is still so freaking ex!! but ms sixty clothes are damn nise!! hahah, too bad i'm too poor to buy! den i bought tis tote bag at topshop for 13 bucks..haha not bad looking lar!! geri insisted dat it can be worn as a tube -__-"'

hehehe, den we went to wisma, walked ard as usual.....hahah topshop sells nise stuff there sia...but too ex le.... den we walked past tis shop dat's lyk having a sale?? hahah, got so many ppl inside lar....so we went in lor....wah the clothes there really damn cool! and quite cheap oso lar.... not as exaggerated as ms sixty and topshop! hahah but the skirts all too big liao......dropping sia....nwae, we saw shuting there oso....hahah she lyk no need to study for A's lidat lar..... hahah.... geri was super hesitant on whether to buy tis white and pink skirt dat cost 58 bucks....hahah... but she got it in the end lar....cos it was really damn nise....lols.... and it looks gd on her =)

tml lesson ends at 1040.... so shuang lar.... maybe gg bugis....haha shall buy smt man!! todae abit wasted din get the skirt.... lols.... and i haf OP dry run tml again! so fast lar... can die..

u're just pissing mi off.. wif yr rudeness

just finished doing my OP.... edited so many things lar....hope it can work man!and i haf no time to do my chem skill A cos of the damn pw! haiyo! zhen shi de....aiya, heck lar, tml go sch den see how.... nwae, to those pranksters out there, if u tink dat joking ard wif relationships is fun, get a life lar! if u're not, just tell mi whu u are! or at least drop a hint? are u the one i wish u are? and the worst thing is tt, u dun even frequently tag, how u expect mi to believe u?

Saturday, October 23, 2004

hahah was too tired to blog yesterdae....nwae had open hse yesterdae... spent 2 hrs being college tour guides....bo bian lar i dun haf cip hrs can! nwae, the netball booth was quite popular! hahah *pats* we did a great job in calling all those potential sec 4 ppl down! hahah! eh hope some of them will really come leh!! we really need u man!! nwae, supposed to haf trg at 5 aft open hse....but guess jiao lian saw tt we were all exhausted, so he din haf trg lor....instead we spent the time ranking those sec 4 players and toking crap lor..hahah teh was chao farnie lar!! hahahah... even jiao lian oso kanna influenced by her!lols!! played dodgeball for a while b4 gg off to forture to eat..... hahah.... wah kanna zam by weilin's and geri's balls lar....hahah... but damn hard to aim them leh, run so fast!! hahah, but i hit them once lar.... hahah wen they doing their high 5s... so jian....hahah sorry ah!! hahah din mean it lar....ate deer meat at forture....lyk duh rite!! wad else is there gd to eat man! nwae, went there wif teh, yuhui, geri, weilin and xiao jun.....hahah met some polo guys there.... we were luffing so loudly can! hahah so fun! wah biang jiao lian scared all of us to death last nite lar... cos some of us left our wallets and phones on the table.... den they placed them on the floor cos they need to return the table mah.... so they were placed on the floor without anything to cover them....den wen we returned aft playing dodgeballs, they were gone!!!! den we were lyk panicking lar....den in the end it was jiao lian whu took it can.... cos he saw us placing the valuables on the floor den he took them lor.....to teach us a lesson not to leave our stuff lying ard....can die lar! but heng it was him hu took it lar....else i'll just kill myself can! shall not be so careless next time liao!!

if i knew dat things will turn out to be as cold as todae, i will not haf done it in the first place....i'd rather not noe u

Thursday, October 21, 2004

went to redo the netball notice board todae.... not bad lar, at least it looks much better den last time......well done pple! den went to eat wif yuhui, amanda and weilin...wah super shiok... luffed until we died lar.....hahah.... yuhui is soooo farnie can.....hahah dun kill mi gal!! =P

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

tried the d.i.y hair dye todae...color quite cool leh.....hahah but lyk not beri obvious leh....aiya i oso duno! hahaha.... nwae, yuhui, ye and fang came my hse to do their hair too and we all got scared by my mum lar.... but in the end she din mind lar...chey scare mi lar!!

nwae i'm HIGHLY TRAUMATISED can!! someone save mi pls!! cham lar!!!!

Monday, October 18, 2004

Oasis- Stop Crying Your Heart Out

Hold up
Hold on
Don't be scared
You'll never change what's been and gone

May your smile (may your smile)
Shine on (shine on)
Don't be scared (don't be scared)
Your destiny may keep you warm

Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Get up (get up)
Come on (come on)
Why're you scared? (I'm not scared)
You'll never change
What's been and gone

Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

We're all of us stars
We're fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see us some day
Just take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out

it's been a long time since i haf felt wad is happiness.

Sunday, October 17, 2004

i nvr was happy.

Saturday, October 16, 2004

to all the sec 4s out there: JIAO LIAN WILL BE COACHING HC NEXT YR!

the onli happy thing dat is happening to mi now is tt jiao lian told us tt he's coaching us next yr...i'm lyk damn happy can....at least the champion trophy dun seem so out of reach now! but trg todae really can make us seh diao... can die lar.... wth.. madness...but as wad he saes, no pain no gain!!

凭什么可以爱上所爱 我自问日夜等待 结局为何揭不开

Friday, October 15, 2004

farking pissed wif my maths results todae lar esp c maths! i cant believe it leh... it's lyk i noe how to do one lor but careless lyk shit! oh man fark! i am just so stupid!! screw mi! and now i tink i did worst for c maths den my blocks if they count the overall lar! oh man i hate myself! grrrrrrr and some stupid security guard at the times bookshop had to piss mi and yuhui off todae wen we were flipping the newspapers lar... it's not as if we dun wan to buy rite! u stupid IN***N!! nwae, wimbledon was a retarded show... maybe cos the guy was too old and ugly bah..... so sian dat mi and yuhui fell asleep lar.....zzzz

Thursday, October 14, 2004

tml taking back both maths papers. gd luck to mi...gonna play fos bball for gals on mon and tues at 330... so exciting!! hahahah.....

i haf many gd frens who are always there for mi no matter wad... love u guys man! u guys totally rawk! and i haf tis feeling dat u're avoiding mi....oh wells, wadever man.. it's all up to u lor.. i've done nth wrong so i am not afraid. but den again, perhaps i tink too much.....

Wednesday, October 13, 2004

i hate my life. i hate everything now. i hate the way things are. i hate myself for *y**** you. everydae is hell for mi man! dun make mi hate it. if tt's wad u're gd at.

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

喜欢又怎样，不喜欢又怎样

打从一开始我就不应该抱有什么希望

wat the hell do i really want? but no matter how much i 'say', u never did seem to care... oh wells.... i haf no right to demand for anything

Monday, October 11, 2004

hahah, forget to mention our team's effort.... phyllis was a gd centre, damn gd stamina lar.....and gd teamwork between her and sheena..... sheena! haha gd GA!!! we worked quite well eh!!!! lolsss..... kaihong and yuhang were gd defenders.... intercepting balls everywhere! ye: hahah gd defending....haha but dun get too gan chiong lar!! but nise work!! thumbs up!! fang: gd work!! hahah, esp during the 11-3 game!! fast as a feeder eh? lols...yuhui! haha, super long lar... haha and never-ending.... but u saved alot of balls lar!! thanks! mich: hahah, u guarded the shooter well the last quart! u contributed to our success.....and nwae, dun be too upset, we'll sure find it...

WAH SO HAPPY! WE WON THE NETBALL FOS!! though we lost 3-2 in the starting match, but got a change of plans so we now haf to play each team.. den duno how lar, we got into finals and won!! yay!!!! and i was sunburnt!!!! yay, can become dark! nwae, muz thank yuhui, ye, fang, sheena, phyllis, kaihong, yuhang and mich! all of u all haf put in so much effort....*pats* ooooo, and oso thanks to amanda and choomin for coming to support us!! thanks!! really appreciated it...... SORRY TO MY TEAM MATES, FOR SCREAMING MY HEAD OFF AT U GUYS.... PAISEH!! I GET EASILY PEK CHEK! DUN TAKE IT TO HEART!! SORRY TO MY OPPONENTS WHOM I SHOWED MY TEMPER AT!! AND TO THE POOR GAL WHOM I SWORE AT.... accidentally lar, natural reaction.. SORRYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!
oh ya, and to the soccer ppl.....it's okie!! nvm one, dun lose heart! nwae, hafta apologise for not playing anything......

hope all of u enjoyed FOS.... there's a lot of team spirit i see todae... esp during the bball finals......so exciting! nwae, our cluster won!! yay!! well done peeps~!

当我又想起你

是我躲避不及的原因

总以为可以否定你的爱情

却在不成眠的夜

我又想起你

wad am i doing online now at almost 2 in the morning man! i still haf sch tml! cant get to slp, guess those lyrics totally describe wad i'm feeling now.

U, i'm getting tired of tis, just do watever u wan, since wadever i'm tinking now doesn't even matter to u....it's okie, i'll be fine as long as u're happy.

And u! y must u always appear whenever i stop to tink abt things? Y? Issit really so hard to revert things? i guess it cant, cos ** ***** *** ******* ** *. I dun wish to sae sorry. Cos i dun owe u anything,but u owe mi smt.

Saturday, October 09, 2004

went shopping wif gf todae!! hahaha saw alot of ppl in town lar......yan fang u daoed mi!! i was calling u sooo loudly lar!!! grrr.....nwae, todae's trip was more fruitful! wah damn tired now....muscle aching all over lar......wth....mon's FOS- festival of sports!!! shiok!!! been waiting so long for it!!!

where are u....seems lyk going nowhere

Friday, October 08, 2004

went to orchard to shop todae wif yuhui, sheena, weilin, amanda and ye....din get anything in the end..haha but shall go back to check out some of them soon~ =P

i noe u're happy but things no need to change so fast rite? no need to ask mi to do smt for u den throw mi aside rite? oh wadever.

那些蠢蠢欲动爱的回忆 会让思念都哭泣

duno y got 360 degrees change in mood now. feeling kinda moody.... duno y..lyk got alot of things unanswered... i sound so foolish lar.... y shuld i be rite? but u make my once firm stand waver again....

u din even sae bye!

Thursday, October 07, 2004

to fang: the difference between a cupcake and me!! hahah i'm niser!

WAH I FINALLY FINISHED MY PROMOS!! soooooo shuang!! but aiya sux lar, results come back surely die....nwae, todae went out wif geri, yuhui, amanda, weilin, choo min and sheena for lunch aft f maths....haha we went to ps cos we intended to catch a movie----> white chicks....ate long john and WHITE CHICKS WAS CHAO FUNNIE LAR!! hahaha highly recommended!den mi, geri, yuhui went to play pool wif ye and fang at paradigm.. wah i suck at pool lar.....too long nvr play le... den somemore i was feeling lethargic...duno y....den aft 2 hrs we went to heeren while ye and fang headed home....guai kias..lol! bought hairband.. lols.... weilin and amanda oso went to meet us there...... den we walked ard for a while b4 going....wad a shiok dae!! hehehe, no need mug liao! and...... the best part is I DUN HAF PHYSICS SPA TML!! wahahah!! good luck to the class ppl!! *beams*

[回忆总是会打我一个巴掌 指着旧的伤疤不准我遗忘]
i'm not sure abt it....wad do i really want?

Tuesday, October 05, 2004

2 papers down!yay! econs case study sux lar.....so freaking hard! jia lat..... den todae's maths....haix, super tricky lar..kium pa can! nvm lar,just do better den blocks can le.......thurs last paper!! yay!! finally, the dae i waited for so long! fmaths.. it'll decide whether i can keep 4 sub!!

[ 感觉如果要走谁能说no,我想我可以假装不曾爱过 ]

Saturday, October 02, 2004

用坚强掩饰脆弱
忘记你的全部

i duno..
[大胆快乐小心难过 我没有白活]

Friday, October 01, 2004

decide aft promos. to make or to break. to continue or stop.

烦

自从我看到你就每天失眠食欲不振
因为我不是你喜欢的那种女生
我不想讨你欢心又担心自己难过
但你的要求总让每个女生觉得残忍

我只要看到你就胃快抽筋心律不整
你知道我不是很做作的那种女生
我不想改变发型也不想变换口气
只为了让你让爱我

found tis lyrics frm a shino song....kinda nise.... nwae had chem promos todae..... suxs suxs.... wah cham... May the Lord be with me, may Buddha be with me!! i'm praying to all the gods so dat I CAN PASS!! HELP MI PASS!!