Wednesday, September 29, 2004

暗恋
词：陈韦伶 曲：左安安

你一定想不到 我每天努力的微笑
为了让你看到 就算只是一秒
我想你一定不知道 我常常为你而烦恼
这样真的太糟糕 有恋爱的征兆
现在说我爱你似乎还太早
太多的烦恼是自找 先做个朋友也很好
如果你看出我所有的烦恼 会不会变得骄傲
掉进了暗恋的圈套 谁来告诉我怎么办才好

川岛末树代 Kawashima Makiyo

wad a retarded pic lar.....hahahah

Monday, September 27, 2004

oh man kill mi!!! I LOVE BAE YONG JUN!!! aRUGHhhh!!!!

[ i stared straight into an empty screen, and back it stared at me ]

Don't take advantage of a girl's willingness to do anything for love and her caring instinct. I didn't know that to be born as a girl and to be loved was so hard. Although i will curse you, i'll still miss you since i am a girl, to whom love is everything.

frm the song by kiss: Because I'm Just A Girl

i shuldn't haf told u bout it.... and right after i did, u erased watever dat was present... why huh? to tell the world that i am dat bo liao to go poke my nose into wadever u do? how much i wanted to tell u off, but i cant!

[ 想开 体谅 我已经习惯 不然又能怎样？
死心 失望 会比较简单 却又心有不甘
别放在心上
我只受了点伤
只是受了点伤 ]

Sunday, September 26, 2004

hahaha, weilin sent mi tis pic.... damn funny.... does it remind u of peiyi? hahahahaha!!!!

the song "Dreaming of You" fills the room... the atmosphere is there, the people are there, picture perfect. As my cousin and her bf ( or shuld i sae husband? ) walk down the aisle, the moment was breathetaking. hahaha, i duno y oso but there is a feeling of bliss lingering in the air... makes one feel light-hearted.... hahah, i oso want to get married! but life aft marriage is lyk very restricted as now u haf to live wif another person. oh wells, hahah it depends la.. i oso duno!

[怎么也想不到，想不到我竟如此的为你执迷]

Friday, September 24, 2004

他还是不懂
要说什么 杯子都已经空了
闭上眼睛心里下起大雪 天寒又地冻
是不是到了 爱情结帐的时候
只剩下各自买单的寂寞 为什么当我推开门
他没有来拉住我

他还不懂 还是不懂 离开是想要被挽留
如果开口那只是 我要来的温柔

他还不懂 永远不懂 一个拥抱能代替所有
爱绝对能够动摇我 (Ending在第一时间拯救我)

要用什么 融化这一片沉默
在四周的冷空气里叹息　化成烟飘走
过去的种种　在心里滚成雪球
怕还没说话泪就会先流 爱不是他给得不多
是不知道我要什么

都是背了太多的心愿 流星才会跌的那么重
爱太多心也有 坠毁的时候

i should be studying now. still slacking la. damn.
[ 我的眼泪不重要 只要你记得回来就好 ]

had spa yesterdae... suxs la my skill B confirm gone la.... wah lau i was damn gan chiong till i forgot to swirl the mixture and clamp the flask la...wth..... heck la....den todae first paper of promos! gp paper....suxs... firstly is the compo topics........ all damn hard to write....thereafter is the compre.....wah lau i had 5 mins to write an 8 mark AQ question? and i lyk onli wrote for less than a page? confirm die lar.... shit lar.... hope the bad luck dun continue lar.... grrr....

nwae went to watch dodgeballs aft gp just now wif geri, yuhui, ye and fang......hahah the show's damn corny lar...but farnie lar....hahah yuhui kept insisting dat it was lame....quite true la.....hahah but tt coach in the show really reminds mi of jiao lian lar..... my god so scary....i'm getting traumatised at the thought of it lar......

here's the photos we took todae....

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

对不起我爱你 作词：潘协庆 / 李宗盛 / 作曲：潘协庆

没别的，只想说对不起。对不起，我真的爱你。
不管你会怎么想，你怎么说。也不会改变我的决定。
你知道，有时候感情事很难说。很难说，爱人或朋友？
从前到现在我真的感觉要，一想你，我的心就发烧。

想给你听我的心跳，想你知道我睡的不好。
喝水想着你，搭车想着你。瞌眼闭眼间，出现的全是你。
我猜不到你的表情，我等不到你的回应。
不想难为你，又不想放弃你。
决定告诉你，对不起对不起，我爱你。

没别的，只想说对不起。怎么样，我都会珍惜。
不管你会怎么讲，你怎么做，也不会影响我的心情。
你知道，有时候男孩更难捉摸。难捉摸，爱人或朋友？
现在到永远我真会感觉要，一想你，我的心就狂跳。

我的模样记不记得牢？情人卡有没有收到？
读书想着你，听歌想着你，大地和蓝天，出现的全是你。
我才不管你的表情，我才不理你回不回应。
不想难为你，又不想放弃你。
决定告诉你，对不起对不起，我爱你。

你听一听我的心跳，你看一看我睡的不好。
喝水想着你，搭车想着你。瞌眼闭眼间，出现的全是你。
我猜不到你的表情，我等不到你的回应。
不想难为你，又不想放弃你。
决定告诉你，对不起对不起，我爱你。

Tuesday, September 21, 2004

wah cant believe tis fri is our gp promos liao! so fast! kinda worried....skali cannot promote den die lar! haven really been studying for maths....cham....shall go do my differential equation tutorial later.... suxs... arugh, cant wait for tis whole thing to be over~

Sunday, September 19, 2004

Message: THIS IS WHAT i wan to tell YOU:
* If you see me walking the road with someone else, it's not because I like his accompany...
It's because you're not brave enough to walk beside me.*
* If you hear me talking about him all the time, it's not because he pleases me...
It's because you're too deaf to hear my heartbeat*
* If you feel me falling with someone new, it's not because I love him..
But because you're not there to catch me fall*

If you feel lost, I too am nowhere
I too don't know where the road is going

Are we gonna cross each other's path
Or just completely turn around?..

Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound?

Don't let me walk with him,
It's you I want to walk with..

Don't let me talk of him,
It's you I want to talk with..

Don't let me fall for him,
It's you I want to fall in love with..

"HOW DID HE REPLY?"
When you thought I wasn't brave enough to walk beside you
I was behind you every step of the way
Still filled with awe because of the beauty that stand before me

When you thought I was too deaf to hear your heartbeat
I didn't want to assume anything
And I was afraid to lose our friendship

When you thought I wasn't there to catch you,
It was because you never gave me the chance
You never reached the bottom, you've already grabbed a branch

If you feel like you are nowhere,
I too am lost
I too don't know where the road is going

Are we just going to turn around,
Or are we gonna cross each other's path?

Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound?

Don't let me walk alone
I want to walk by your side

Don't let me talk of something else
It's you I want to talk with

Don't let me fall for someone else
It's you I want to fall in love with.

a msg dat someone posted in friendster.... rather meaningful.. but so wad?
[曾说过要让你自由 就该学着放手 ]

wah just returned frm maf.....damn tired now lar..... hahaha...but it was quite fun lar.....hahah,yah, but i haven been studying the whole of todae! wth! hmmmm die lar, supposed to do chem todae but shiet, cant finish it le......nwae, maf was not as bad as i tot......hahah the mass dance was quite fun....though i suck at dancing lar......hahaha...but i was dancing wif teh, so abit weird yah.....hahahah... went to kap wif the class aft maf to eat and slack....hahah weisong bought sheena a balloon.....so exciting lar! and damn funnie oso!! hahaha, saw some gd-looking seniors too....hahah not bad lar...hahah and the lights all tt were damn nise......hahaha... nwae, we went kab to slack and tell jokes la....haha damn farnie.....love it man! hahah imagine we haf a class chalet....wah surely damn fuN! wah lau now haf to go mug liao....haha shall finish one chem topic b4 i slp.....hahah and raymond chong was happily following william ard the whole nite lar......damn farnie! gd luck to him man!

Friday, September 17, 2004

a short dae todae. ended sch at 120... slept frm 330 to 7 lar.... so long lar.. i onli intended to slp till 530 can.... guess i'll haf insomnia tonite.... feeling damn sian now....who's going for MAF tml?????

*我猜不到你的表情 我等不到你的回應*

Thursday, September 16, 2004

suddenly came to realise smt.... chain letters are just useless shit dat are meant to scare ppl onli.... so wad if u forwarded that mail to 500 ppl? the result is the same as not forwarding at all.... y waste yr time... but....

*i'm not asking for much*

sg idol rawks.... the wildcard round.... and i dun understand wad's wrong wif the judges lar....ppl just want to project a new image so that life will not get monotonous, and they criticise till lidat..get a damn life lar! hahaha..... i sae as if i'm lyk one of the contestants lidat hor.. =P

MAIA GOT IN! SHE'S GOT THE ATTITUDE MAN! hahaha... ben din get in..*sighs* hahah.... but nice seeing him on stage too....beverly got in too.... =_= *pukes*

fell down while playing bball todae!hahah, crashed into weilin.... hahah luckily i managed to break her fall.......how noble i am! hahah..kidding lar.... wah lau now leg got damn ugly scar la....din sprain my finger though....damn heng....den ching really haf to give the chem test lar....damn kium pa can.... tml's a short dae....faster chiong home to slp....bth leh.....

there's titanic on tues! hahah cannot watch lar....confirm get depressed aft the show again lar....duno y leh....hahaha everytime oso lidat..

*在來不及以前*

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

to all those whom i haf snapped at, I'M SORRY!! duno wad's gotten into mi....suddenly got this feeling of wanting to be alone..... crazy lar.... sorry if i made u upset or anything..... i din do it on purpose....

todae's a sian dae.... had detention in sch.... for ponning ct lesson....bo liao one lar.....just sat there and do my work loh, waste time, pang din even come and check lar.... there's tis chem mcq test on electrochem tml but really got no mood to study now...i feel tired....haix.

listening to lotsa sad songs now, just realised dat if u actually listened carefully, the meaning of the lyrics deepens yr thoughts....hmmm

*frozen* void of feelings*

Monday, September 13, 2004

haha, suddenly came to realised alot of things had changed since sec sch....hahah..duno y but had tis feeling of nostalgia (issit spelt lidat?) now...weird rite..so many things dat we've given up, ignored, left aside.... come to regret now oso no use rite? hahah.... time is a slient killer, u'll never noe wad u'll be losing until the end. well, guess i wasted time oso...ahaha, but it wasn't my fault lar..... though at the end, i haf to shoulder part of the blame too....dun ask wad is it, i'd hate to recall it...yet now, haha i'm faced wif another situation, i dunno how to handle it.... how loser, but i guess it doesn't even matter....

Sunday, September 12, 2004

todae marks the end of the sept holidays. gonna start sch tml le..... no more slping at 3am and waking up at 11 le.... promos coming.... shiet lar.... have to chiong liao.... damn.. arugh sian! cant wait for life after promos....feel lyk i'm taking my o's again can....hahah... hectic.... plus the stupid pw.... waste time.

Saturday, September 11, 2004

damn pissed off right now. grrrrrr. WADEVA LA HUH!

Thursday, September 09, 2004

Good-bye, you never fade in my memory
I didn't even say good-bye to you clearly
It's over

from ayumi's lyrics....

Wednesday, September 08, 2004

wah i am damn full now lar... just had dinner at crystal jade restaurant at j8 there... got a treat frm auntie!! =) yay!! hahah they ordered sweet and sour pork (yummy!), cuttlefish, fried fish and a plate of brocolli wif scallop~ wah i had 2 bowls of rice lar.... damn full lar! and i finished almost the whole plate of fish by myself lar.... kaos, damn nise.... wah gonna be damn fat le..haha but i din eat lunch todae leh!! hahah... aiya nvm lar, tml got trg... can exercise!! hahaha... shall go reading room to study b4 trg tml...hahah i'm feeling hardworking for once!! hahah.... later still haf to cont'd doin chem.... suxs.... damn sian!
oooooo, there's a soccer match later... can keep mi awake!! lolss.... crazy...

i din mean wad i sae.. but u din even seem to notice it ...

haha went to the lib wif gf just now! haha studied quite abit lar.... but still quite sian...onli finished electrolysis lar...supposed to finish alkanes too but nvm lar.....can wait.....lolss.... tml got trg at 8 in sch! grrr.... so early lar... i wan slp late one lar!! haiyo..

to all those bitches dat i tot of just now, I HATE U ALL! phoney ppl out there....pisses mi off!

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

i am disappointed.... it seems that everything is so shallow... wadeva la huh

Sunday, September 05, 2004

a new blog layout!!

wahahah.....yay, i haf a new layout!! so nise!!!! thanks to peiyi whu helped mi do everything man..... thanks so much!! hahahah.. lurve it!! yay!! hehehe.... it's all worth it!! =)

Friday, September 03, 2004

it's time to let go.... no point clinging on.... i guess i was just too naive.... shuldn't haf expected much to come out of it, shuld i? it's not tt i'm too sensitive or wad, but i'm not stupid either.... it's okie, i'll be fine.... maybe dat doesn't even raise yr concern.... let's wait....but how much time do we haf? zero.......i gif up.

bye

Thursday, September 02, 2004

whoever u all are, pls stop all tis nonsense.... am i tt pathetic or are u just plain bored wif yr own screwed up life?? wad's yr f***ing problem lar? stop vandalising my tag board i warn u.... b4 i turn nasty....